For once, I shall be more upfront in my writings.
I am not a fool.
I am tired of this endless pity.
Let me stress this once more.
However, I emphasis that it's not egoistical or self importance on my part.
Almost all of you are nothing.
Even what I have realised is imcomparable with millions.
Only a glimpse...
I felt it, I can now imagine and even feel it.
Amplifying it thousands of times and know that it still doesn't come close.
But, I can say I am the same. Only sheer infinte luck.
Compare this luck with our lifespan and the globe.
Could some of you say the same things *
truthfully?
What I have seen so far?
People.
In general?
Easy opinions and importance, simply to laugh at others and feel a certain self dignified worth .
Superiority and self inflicted wisdom.
"Oh I have led such a difficult and hard life. I have grown wise beyond my years and so mature for my age. Only those I choose are either on a par with me or nearly there. The rest are merely banes of society and a waste of precious resource."
Pardon my honesty.
Matters so trivial.
For reasons only for yourselves.
Pride. An excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's purpose in life. The sin from which all others arise. Simply put, vanity.
Envy. A desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.
Gluttony. An inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.
Lust. An inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.
Anger. Manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.
Greed. The desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.
Sloth Simply the avoidance of physical or spiritual work
What I believe?
They manifest themselves in contemporary society and in our individual lives. Whether or not one is religious in orientation the understanding that sin is a summons to life.
Human psychology must incorporate moral philosophy which is near impossible sadly if it is to effectively address the emotional problems faced by modern men and women.
Be honest, answer yourselves.
The fundaments we address to crucial personal and social questions.
I am not even close to being human, much less have the audacity to think myself a saint which is probably an opinion some must have formed by now.
I would do the same in the past.
Those who know me, look at the outcome.
Such conceit!
Where it led.
But I try now...
No! I have done it no matter how far from the actual.
I am doing my best!
Finally, my opinion?
The concept of sin can still serve to unlock the mystery of existence.
Realization.
The hardest of all, acceptance.
I know... I do know.
I used to be one of the ugliest of men.
Blessed.
I realised that and began to abuse it.
I manipulated, I charmed. Doing small "good deeds" to hide my shame and guilt subconsiously.
Please, everything I have said only means one thing.
We can all do this, even though it's something impossible to correct.
So what?
We can try.
I know what some of you think.
I can understand if you beg to differ or interfere.
Please, you are free to your own beliefs and purpose in life of course.
I am not seeking respect and have never thought of myself as worthy to lead as an example.
I learnt my lesson, in ways I fear to remember even now.
I lost everything. Everything...
I humbly hope some of you can give it some thought.
I only hope I might be able to remind.
To bring out what I am sure everyone knows but buries out of sight.
Can you see it?
It's digusting isn't it?
The most important bonds?
They are the simplest.
Once, I never understood that.
