It hurts me so to love you,
I wonder if it hurts you too.
Your jaded smile and gentle words,
Only hurt me even worse.
I've only barely healed this heart,
now its broken, smashed and scattered.
I don't know why i love you so,

It's like a blunt knife through my heart and soul.
If what we have is so futile,
Why does it seem to be worth my while?

But when i see your happy smile,
It makes the pain more bearable.

Born to a fixed water sign. Taught to realise the word existence and survival. Denying quietly and resourcefully against such pompous and self righteous dogma and brutality. Utmost anger at manipulation and charm, people who play with words to control. Age old practices of leading the deserving by the unqualified for their benefit. A never-ending quest to save the smiles around me, please do not let me catch you. Please... do not monopolise the people around me. I will find out.