Woke up with a hangover.
Remnants of my memories lingers from the past night.
The last thing I remembered was reaching home.
Was alone.
I have been distant... Haven't I my friends?
She looked so sad last night...
A chance glance at the mirror.
Should I smile?
I"ll try...
Remnants of my memories lingers from the past night.
The last thing I remembered was reaching home.
Was alone.
I have been distant... Haven't I my friends?
She looked so sad last night...
A chance glance at the mirror.
Should I smile?
I"ll try...
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A need?
Solace?
Hardly but I am trying...
I am sorry...
I can't fill in this entry.
Solace?
Hardly but I am trying...
I am sorry...
I can't fill in this entry.
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Took a walk in the heartlands.
Suits me...
Faces and places.
Sped up, flashed by.
Seemingly bound by an endless railway.
Destination...
Destination?
A continous buzzing.
Momentarily stops to say hi to a number of aquaintences.
An irate pounding in my head. Quite ear-spiltting, really.
Unable to stop, I have tried.
Something I can't get out of my mind.
I hope I am wrong.
I cannot afford to be correct.
She needs him.
Caught a movie alone.
Infinte issues raised, a few vague answers of varying degrees.
Concepts addressed were intersting and pretty much room left for thought.
The Island, it's rather good.
Suits me...
Faces and places.
Sped up, flashed by.
Seemingly bound by an endless railway.
Destination...
Destination?
A continous buzzing.
Momentarily stops to say hi to a number of aquaintences.
An irate pounding in my head. Quite ear-spiltting, really.
Unable to stop, I have tried.
Something I can't get out of my mind.
I hope I am wrong.
I cannot afford to be correct.
She needs him.
Caught a movie alone.
Infinte issues raised, a few vague answers of varying degrees.
Concepts addressed were intersting and pretty much room left for thought.
The Island, it's rather good.
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Ecstatic.
Overwhelmed.
A rhythm in my head that I can't seem to get out off.
There! Tapping my foot to a song only I hear.
Reminiscing...
The highest of highs and the lowest of lows.
All in just a few hours.
She knows what I mean. Don't you?
I"ll also take back what I mentioned in an earlier post about people like my best friend needing to be shot, cut and murdered.
I am back at the highest of highs. Anyone, dance with me.
Overwhelmed.
A rhythm in my head that I can't seem to get out off.
There! Tapping my foot to a song only I hear.
Reminiscing...
The highest of highs and the lowest of lows.
All in just a few hours.
She knows what I mean. Don't you?
I"ll also take back what I mentioned in an earlier post about people like my best friend needing to be shot, cut and murdered.
I am back at the highest of highs. Anyone, dance with me.
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For once, I shall be more upfront in my writings.
I am not a fool.
I am tired of this endless pity.
Let me stress this once more.
However, I emphasis that it's not egoistical or self importance on my part.
Almost all of you are nothing.
Even what I have realised is imcomparable with millions.
Only a glimpse...
I felt it, I can now imagine and even feel it.
Amplifying it thousands of times and know that it still doesn't come close.
But, I can say I am the same. Only sheer infinte luck.
Compare this luck with our lifespan and the globe.
Could some of you say the same things *truthfully?
What I have seen so far?
People.
In general?
Easy opinions and importance, simply to laugh at others and feel a certain self dignified worth .
Superiority and self inflicted wisdom.
"Oh I have led such a difficult and hard life. I have grown wise beyond my years and so mature for my age. Only those I choose are either on a par with me or nearly there. The rest are merely banes of society and a waste of precious resource."
Pardon my honesty.
Matters so trivial.
For reasons only for yourselves.
Pride. An excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's purpose in life. The sin from which all others arise. Simply put, vanity.
Envy. A desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.
Gluttony. An inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.
Lust. An inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.
Anger. Manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.
Greed. The desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.
Sloth Simply the avoidance of physical or spiritual work
What I believe?
They manifest themselves in contemporary society and in our individual lives. Whether or not one is religious in orientation the understanding that sin is a summons to life.
Human psychology must incorporate moral philosophy which is near impossible sadly if it is to effectively address the emotional problems faced by modern men and women.
Be honest, answer yourselves.
The fundaments we address to crucial personal and social questions.
I am not even close to being human, much less have the audacity to think myself a saint which is probably an opinion some must have formed by now.
I would do the same in the past.
Those who know me, look at the outcome.
Such conceit!
Where it led.
But I try now...
No! I have done it no matter how far from the actual.
I am doing my best!
Finally, my opinion?
The concept of sin can still serve to unlock the mystery of existence.
Realization.
The hardest of all, acceptance.
I know... I do know.
I used to be one of the ugliest of men.
Blessed.
I realised that and began to abuse it.
I manipulated, I charmed. Doing small "good deeds" to hide my shame and guilt subconsiously.
Please, everything I have said only means one thing.
We can all do this, even though it's something impossible to correct.
So what?
We can try.
I know what some of you think.
I can understand if you beg to differ or interfere.
Please, you are free to your own beliefs and purpose in life of course.
I am not seeking respect and have never thought of myself as worthy to lead as an example.
I learnt my lesson, in ways I fear to remember even now.
I lost everything. Everything...
I humbly hope some of you can give it some thought.
I only hope I might be able to remind.
To bring out what I am sure everyone knows but buries out of sight.
Can you see it?
It's digusting isn't it?
The most important bonds?
They are the simplest.
Once, I never understood that.
I am not a fool.
I am tired of this endless pity.
Let me stress this once more.
However, I emphasis that it's not egoistical or self importance on my part.
Almost all of you are nothing.
Even what I have realised is imcomparable with millions.
Only a glimpse...
I felt it, I can now imagine and even feel it.
Amplifying it thousands of times and know that it still doesn't come close.
But, I can say I am the same. Only sheer infinte luck.
Compare this luck with our lifespan and the globe.
Could some of you say the same things *truthfully?
What I have seen so far?
People.
In general?
Easy opinions and importance, simply to laugh at others and feel a certain self dignified worth .
Superiority and self inflicted wisdom.
"Oh I have led such a difficult and hard life. I have grown wise beyond my years and so mature for my age. Only those I choose are either on a par with me or nearly there. The rest are merely banes of society and a waste of precious resource."
Pardon my honesty.
Matters so trivial.
For reasons only for yourselves.
Pride. An excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's purpose in life. The sin from which all others arise. Simply put, vanity.
Envy. A desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.
Gluttony. An inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.
Lust. An inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.
Anger. Manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.
Greed. The desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.
Sloth Simply the avoidance of physical or spiritual work
What I believe?
They manifest themselves in contemporary society and in our individual lives. Whether or not one is religious in orientation the understanding that sin is a summons to life.
Human psychology must incorporate moral philosophy which is near impossible sadly if it is to effectively address the emotional problems faced by modern men and women.
Be honest, answer yourselves.
The fundaments we address to crucial personal and social questions.
I am not even close to being human, much less have the audacity to think myself a saint which is probably an opinion some must have formed by now.
I would do the same in the past.
Those who know me, look at the outcome.
Such conceit!
Where it led.
But I try now...
No! I have done it no matter how far from the actual.
I am doing my best!
Finally, my opinion?
The concept of sin can still serve to unlock the mystery of existence.
Realization.
The hardest of all, acceptance.
I know... I do know.
I used to be one of the ugliest of men.
Blessed.
I realised that and began to abuse it.
I manipulated, I charmed. Doing small "good deeds" to hide my shame and guilt subconsiously.
Please, everything I have said only means one thing.
We can all do this, even though it's something impossible to correct.
So what?
We can try.
I know what some of you think.
I can understand if you beg to differ or interfere.
Please, you are free to your own beliefs and purpose in life of course.
I am not seeking respect and have never thought of myself as worthy to lead as an example.
I learnt my lesson, in ways I fear to remember even now.
I lost everything. Everything...
I humbly hope some of you can give it some thought.
I only hope I might be able to remind.
To bring out what I am sure everyone knows but buries out of sight.
Can you see it?
It's digusting isn't it?
The most important bonds?
They are the simplest.
Once, I never understood that.
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Was looking at Yuting's blog earlier.
Noticed a quiz and one thing led to another.
Anyway, why am I King of the world?
Simple, because I am a genius.
Noticed a quiz and one thing led to another.
Anyway, why am I King of the world?
Simple, because I am a genius.
| Your IQ Is 110 |
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Singaporeans...
Current events leaves little to desire for.
Been hooked on a new game.
Haven't even really slept enough. It's that good.
Join me?
Guild Wars.
Current events leaves little to desire for.
Been hooked on a new game.
Haven't even really slept enough. It's that good.
Join me?
Guild Wars.
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I have finished the book.
As usual a delightful read.
Dark however and too depressing this time round.
I can't believe Rowling killed him.
He's dead.
Harry Potter And the Half Blood Prince.
Lastly, my best friend has now fallen head over heels in love with a woman causing him to utilize certain fonts in Msn with many hearts. People like him should be shot, cut down and murdered.
As usual a delightful read.
Dark however and too depressing this time round.
I can't believe Rowling killed him.
He's dead.
Harry Potter And the Half Blood Prince.
Lastly, my best friend has now fallen head over heels in love with a woman causing him to utilize certain fonts in Msn with many hearts. People like him should be shot, cut down and murdered.
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My mind is clearer.
Certain worries and problems were settled because of my best friend, just like that.
Thank you, only he knows the shit I have to go through lately...
Though I haven't really been saying much.
Had a great but weary night.
Was running all over the place half the time.
However, it was great.
My friend was really estactic doing some of the things he had waited so long for.
It really brought a smile to my face.
Certain worries and problems were settled because of my best friend, just like that.
Thank you, only he knows the shit I have to go through lately...
Though I haven't really been saying much.
Had a great but weary night.
Was running all over the place half the time.
However, it was great.
My friend was really estactic doing some of the things he had waited so long for.
It really brought a smile to my face.
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Just an update.
My best friend has finally recieved his Bond.
26 000 dollers in total.
To prevent the world from hounding him and transforming into his new best buddy, I shall withhold his name from this entry.
For those in the dark, he signed on to the Singapore Armed Forces as a Military Police Officer a while back.
He deserves this little bit of happiness more than anyone I know.
He sounded really cute I might add. "Shaowei! I got my bond!"
Adorable.
My best friend has finally recieved his Bond.
26 000 dollers in total.
To prevent the world from hounding him and transforming into his new best buddy, I shall withhold his name from this entry.
For those in the dark, he signed on to the Singapore Armed Forces as a Military Police Officer a while back.
He deserves this little bit of happiness more than anyone I know.
He sounded really cute I might add. "Shaowei! I got my bond!"
Adorable.
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I took a long drag of my cigarette and recalled the night events.
They were laughing and smiling.
Shuffled around and meeting different people.
A glimpse of emotions...
Hope.
Fear.
Loss.
Routine.
There was something about their eyes...
Stella.
I met her.
A wonderful and gorgeous young lady.
Smiles shared, stories told.
Understanding, without words.
I noticed something.
Her eyes, they are the same.
Underneath it all, whatever one may see.
Their eyes... They tell it all.
Sorrow...
Stella...
she seemed so sad.
They were laughing and smiling.
Shuffled around and meeting different people.
A glimpse of emotions...
Hope.
Fear.
Loss.
Routine.
There was something about their eyes...
Stella.
I met her.
A wonderful and gorgeous young lady.
Smiles shared, stories told.
Understanding, without words.
I noticed something.
Her eyes, they are the same.
Underneath it all, whatever one may see.
Their eyes... They tell it all.
Sorrow...
Stella...
she seemed so sad.
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A night out.
Less than 4 hours.
...
...
...
...
...
...
...
...
150 dollers cleaned out.
Total bill came up to more than 500 bucks.
I have spent more than a thousand in less than a month.
I amaze myself too.
Less than 4 hours.
...
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...
...
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...
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150 dollers cleaned out.
Total bill came up to more than 500 bucks.
I have spent more than a thousand in less than a month.
I amaze myself too.
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Sunrise..
Flashbacks.
Memories.
Vivid.
Real.
A scream.
I remember them still.
Emptiness. Longing. Pain. Disappoinment. Sorrow. Suicide. Anger. Hatred. Loss. Impatience...
Madness.
Words?
They don't even come close.
I am a coward. Those strips of film are chained.
A nightmare? Fear?
Yes.
Yes...
Keep it in check, keep it in check...
I can.
I bite my lip.
Taste of iron.
I am safe?
Yes.
I am home...
Flashbacks.
Memories.
Vivid.
Real.
A scream.
I remember them still.
Emptiness. Longing. Pain. Disappoinment. Sorrow. Suicide. Anger. Hatred. Loss. Impatience...
Madness.
Words?
They don't even come close.
I am a coward. Those strips of film are chained.
A nightmare? Fear?
Yes.
Yes...
Keep it in check, keep it in check...
I can.
I bite my lip.
Taste of iron.
I am safe?
Yes.
I am home...
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I tried a manual automobile for the first time.
No comments please. Lol.
Nicholas Yeo gave me a hand up at Mount Faber.
Numerous jerks, attempts at tight turns and multiple jamming of breaks.
Conclusion?
10, 20 or 30 Kmph when you don't know what you are doing can send you flying of a hill to a blind date with your maker.
No comments please. Lol.
Nicholas Yeo gave me a hand up at Mount Faber.
Numerous jerks, attempts at tight turns and multiple jamming of breaks.
Conclusion?
10, 20 or 30 Kmph when you don't know what you are doing can send you flying of a hill to a blind date with your maker.
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Enlightenment.
Three days now.
I finally understand.
An excerpt from a conversation..
Someone said good naturedly, you are a fool you know that? A stupid kind fool.
If wisdom means to manipulate and be that man.
A man I am filled with contempt and disgust for now.
I rather be a fool for life!
Three days now.
I finally understand.
An excerpt from a conversation..
Someone said good naturedly, you are a fool you know that? A stupid kind fool.
If wisdom means to manipulate and be that man.
A man I am filled with contempt and disgust for now.
I rather be a fool for life!
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It no longer matters..
I am tired and spent.
I've done all I can, no matter the price at my own expanse.
Thank you, everyone who has been concerned.
You guys were incredible, as always.
Realization will come one day, I only hope it would not be too late for her.
I wish it wouldn't have to be this way.. I really wish it wouldn't.
I am tired and spent.
I've done all I can, no matter the price at my own expanse.
Thank you, everyone who has been concerned.
You guys were incredible, as always.
Realization will come one day, I only hope it would not be too late for her.
I wish it wouldn't have to be this way.. I really wish it wouldn't.
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It returned.
Following me like a shadow once again.
Disappointment.
A emptiness within overwhelms.
Why!
Will it always be this way?
I've wanted to start all over, I have found that magic..
Yet.
It has returned.
I am hunted once again.
Following me like a shadow once again.
Disappointment.
A emptiness within overwhelms.
Why!
Will it always be this way?
I've wanted to start all over, I have found that magic..
Yet.
It has returned.
I am hunted once again.
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Waiting for that significant phonecall..
I am all smiles.
I miss her..
Oh yes, Nicholas Chong got owned.
Nuff said.
I am all smiles.
I miss her..
Oh yes, Nicholas Chong got owned.
Nuff said.
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I lost all sense of time.
Smiling..
Dancing.
Yes, dancing to a song only I hear.
Left for camp in a happy little daze.
Rudely woken up by A Honda with a deathwish.
FUCK.
Smiling..
Dancing.
Yes, dancing to a song only I hear.
Left for camp in a happy little daze.
Rudely woken up by A Honda with a deathwish.
FUCK.
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Disappointment.
Anger? Subtle..
They don't realise I can read their thoughts.
What is this hurt I am feeling?
Suddenly, peace.
Aftermath of an eye of a storm.
A presence?
Her presence..
How is it possible.
Who is she really..
Anger? Subtle..
They don't realise I can read their thoughts.
What is this hurt I am feeling?
Suddenly, peace.
Aftermath of an eye of a storm.
A presence?
Her presence..
How is it possible.
Who is she really..
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The tip scratched upon the parchment.
A dream setting of a playwright.
Her fingers danced gracefully over the keys.
Again the man writes, a midsummer night's wind blows.
Like an undying lover it plays with her hair.
She is beautiful.. Like a bloom of a rose.
Her cheeks are flushed, she smiles and closes her eyes.
Eyes of an endless railway of lies. Mesmerizing only to the man.
The man pauses, his pen quivers.
Forcefully he etches the words in her memory.
The music of the piano overwhelms his senses.
A life of it's own, it cuts and bleeds.
A distant cry....
He pauses, unable to carry on.
He leaves the room, an endless rain pours.
Memories of her, none other than his own past.
His lies.
He wipes at his eyes, through the rain he sees them. Vague Silhouettes, familiar and comforting however.
He smiles and weeps, holding them close.
A silent whisper.. He hears them
Dry your tears, my friend. Dry your tears...
His friends?
My friends....
A dream setting of a playwright.
Her fingers danced gracefully over the keys.
Again the man writes, a midsummer night's wind blows.
Like an undying lover it plays with her hair.
She is beautiful.. Like a bloom of a rose.
Her cheeks are flushed, she smiles and closes her eyes.
Eyes of an endless railway of lies. Mesmerizing only to the man.
The man pauses, his pen quivers.
Forcefully he etches the words in her memory.
The music of the piano overwhelms his senses.
A life of it's own, it cuts and bleeds.
A distant cry....
He pauses, unable to carry on.
He leaves the room, an endless rain pours.
Memories of her, none other than his own past.
His lies.
He wipes at his eyes, through the rain he sees them. Vague Silhouettes, familiar and comforting however.
He smiles and weeps, holding them close.
A silent whisper.. He hears them
Dry your tears, my friend. Dry your tears...
His friends?
My friends....
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