I know, I know.
Here's the latest.
My mind lost in pixels and byte fragments.
Staggered.
Dusk till dawn.
Tis' where I hide, a forceful imprint.
One of my best mates knows me well.
"Get out more lad, quit staying hermit."
Took the advise.
Shaved and dolled myself up, missed that...
With another of my best mate, Club Momo here I come.
Wonderful peeps.
Jealous of you sister.
Kudos to you, Joel, Kelvin, Weishen, Germaine and more. Hope the names are right.
Liwen, Isabel, Huixin, Karen and another handful of peeps, lovely.
Just so Nicholas Yeo can't use this on me, I got slapped.
Real hard I might add.
In a spilt second, memories dormant raised.
Second time in my life.
First was a really bad memory and one which I didn't deserve.
Second?
Dramatic event.
That poor girl.
Sum it up?
All in all, great fun.
You're right bro, listening to that advice.
Kevin, how dare you.
I thought you had more than this person I now see before me.
Both you and Esther...
You both...........
An extract, from your blog.
My friends have undone me, no not you guys, my other friends, those who speak more with her. msgs and all that set it in motion. thanks for all that shit. this is why i can never mix my friends together. its different and you guys will never understand how we think. you will never know what its like to have seen the sky, kiss it and revel in its glory. i will never mix you 2 again. and also its time i left for a while, i need to fly solo for a bit. we'll talk again someday just like we always do. and no im not pissed. just tired of it all. till then.Your other friends?
I throughly enjoyed such a classification.
All that set it in motion?
You have always been pathetic and too egoistical to admit it was your fault.
This is why you can never mix your friends together?
You be careful there.
If you have to know the truth, let me spit it out to you in your face.
It's fear isn't it?
I know. I am familiar with this emotion.
I used to be a pack of lies myself.
I don't have to go into detail, you're smart. You know what I mean.
Furthermore, don't make me shame you more than its necessary.
Don't you dare repeat that sentence.
Don't you even let me see you if you dare.
Don't you fucking dare insult them. NO MATTER HOW DIFFERENT EVERYONE IS, DONT YOU FUCKING DARE DO THIS BEFORE ME. There are times I disagree with Nicholas, disagree with just about anyone. But... So what?
You better think twice before doing this.
You know, I would guard you as fiercely as this before.
By the way, how dare you be as ungrateful as to even pin-point me.
If you had any idea what I've been doing for you...
Its different and you guys will never understand how we think. you will never know what its like to have seen the sky, kiss it and revel in its glory?
Really Kevin?
Really?
So what if there are things Nicholas and the others don't know. So what about any other thing which makes you feel superior.
I have one word and please read it this way.
With utmost disgust and a smile. You know I am mocking you.
Here it goes:
Really?You said: " I will never mix you 2 again."
Of course, as long as you have things to hide...
You would never be able to mix the truth with a lie. Don't you think so?
You need to fly solo awhile?
What a whiner you are. Go run off and hide your shame. Go on.
Like I said, you're a smart man. You would see what other's may not.
Be thankful.
Be thankful you can't look at me, you will never be able to forget what you would see residing within my eyes. Believe me.
Wake up Kevin.
You're a dreamer and a liar.
Unexpected?
Surprised even?
I would be myself if a fortune teller told me it would come to this end.
I have never been one to do something like this, you know it.
For me to have reached this extent...
And you Esther.
This won't change, I said this once. I"ll say it again.
Out of all my girl friends, you're an exception.
The kindest, nicest and most honest and sincere lady I've ever met.
However, you are a fool!
Look at all that is going on.
I warned you! I warned you back then!
You're perceptive.
I don't have to say anything, you should know how I feel about all of this.
Even if I wanted to say it.
I don't think I can find the right words...
Anyway, you helped solve my last piece of the puzzle.
Looking at you now, I realise how I am seen by the rest of late.
I see myself so clearly now.
To think I could be reduced to such a sorry state.
However, thanks to you, I no longer will be.
What about you Esther.
What about you?
You're free to feel anyway about me the both of you, if you think I am cocky for doing this. So be it.
I have finally found my way.
Someone once sent me this words and I was stupid enough to feel proud of it.
The kindest fool is simply just, still a fool...
I am not saying we should be bastards, I for one will never return to my old ways.
You're perceptive, you will know what I mean.
You would cry, when you read this.
I know...
To be honest, it hurts me alot to do so.
However, because I was
such a fool...Because I didn't want to hurt your feelings which were already so fragile.
Because.... Because.
Now?
Lost...
The man I thought I knew.
Bonds shattered.
Dota.
Nicholas.
Everyone.
Look at what the both of you... Have done.
For a while, I won't want to see either of you.
I believe the feeling would be mutual.
